Bar Food

The good news is that with the cleanse complete (yes, complete!), I feel a genuine sense of accomplishment. I also feel like I’ve learned a great deal about myself, my relationship with food, nutrition and   discovered a bunch of new foods and recipes.

The worst part is that last night–with the cleanse finished–I went to a local pub with friends after work.  I was not really in the mood for drinks so I stuck to my usual–soda water and lemon.  A couple of hours later, though, I started to feel hungry…and the pub menu was sooooo tempting.

I ended up having a vegetarian pizza. It was really, really good.  Hot, melty cheese, spices and a crispy, thin crust.  I didn’t suffer any physical side effects from eating the pizza, but I felt so guilty–pizza is NOT a whole food and my resolution is to eat, whole food–organic and local where possible. Having eaten some pizza, I started to panic that now the cleanse is over I’m going to go mad with food and put on weight.  

I know that the cleanse is about health–not weight loss–but I guess I just wasn’t prepared for the worry, the guilt and the remorse that comes with eating “bad” foods. Clearly, my relationship with food is not as amicable as I thought.  I do not want to have to maintain all of my prescribed eliminations–but I also do not want to feel guilty about eating foods I enjoy.  I am going to have to speak with Meghan about this once she returns from holiday. 

In the meantime, do you have any advice?